DO YOU

You gave me chills today

Do you know that?

You pushed me into

Cold uncertainty

Gasping for air

Do you know that?

You made me

Sink several inches into the floor

And float several inches up

To the sky

Staring down at it all

Do you know that?

You made me feel

Like I had no control

Of anything that might befall

Do you know that?

You caused me

To look over my shoulder

So many times

Because I felt

Something was coming my way

Do you know that?

Do you know

That I felt

Like I couldn’t hold on

To anything

And it was my fault?

Do you know that

Now I’m a walking disaster?

Do you notice

That I’m losing my faith?

Do you notice

That I’m trying

To make sense of it all

But only coming up with

This plus that

Equal confusion?

Or maybe I’m pretending to be confused

Because I don’t want to dwell

On the possibilities

Maybe I’m drunk of fear

Trying to find a solution

Which doesn’t involve me

“Do you know what it feels like

Loving someone

Who’s in a rush to throw you away?”

I don’t know if you know

I don’t know if I

WANT you to know

Maybe it’s just

Supposed to be difficult

So it can make us stronger